I GETTING STRESSED OUT!

[Jennifer]

I HAVE ALL THESE HUGE PLANS THIS YEAR! IN THE FIRST SIX MONTHS. I’M LOSING MY MIND. IT SEEMS LIKE EVERY TIME I GET SOMETHING FIGURED OUT, ONE SMALL DETAIL THROWS THE WHOLE THING OUT THE WINDOW AND I HAVE TO START FROM SCRATCH. I DON’T USUALLY BLOG ABOUT PERSONAL THINGS. I JUST FEEL LIKE MAYBE IF I PUT IT OUT THERE, MAYBE IT’LL RELEASE SOME OF MY PENT UP TENSION. WHO KNOWS?

I’M GETTING MARRIED, HOPEFULLY ON APRIL 26^TH, WHICH IS A WONDERFUL THING. UNTIL I REALIZED THAT MY SIMPLE WEDDING WASN’T GONNA BE SO SIMPLE. SO FAR NOTHING HAS GONE SMOOTHLY. I WANTED SOMETHING SMALL AND EASY BUT, HE WANTS HIS WHOLE FAMILY THERE. WHICH I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND, HOWEVER, NOW I’M LOOK AT 45 GUESTS TO PLAN FOR.(AND PAY FOR) DID I MENTION THE CHAPEL WE WANT CANNOT SEEM TO CONFIRM THE AVAILABILITY OF THE RECEPTION HALL OR THAT I CANNOT SEEM TO FIGURE OUT THE RINGS. AND I REFUSE TO PICK OUT A DRESS BECAUSE OF THE COMPETITION.

I’M GOING TO BIKE WEEK IN MAY. WHICH I HAVE TO PUT ASIDE CASH FOR; ROOM HAS BEEN COVERED, THANK GOD! BUT AT THIS MOMOENT WITH THE EXPENSE MENTIONED IN THE PREVIOUS PARAGRAPH. I AM NOT SURE WHERE VACATION CASH WILL COME INTO THE PICTURE? OH AND WE WANTED TO TRADE IN FOR A NEW BIKE BEFORE THE TRIP. NOT SAYING WE CAN’T STILL DO THAT BUT THERE WON’T BE ANY EXTRA CASH FOR DOWN PAYMENTS NOW.

DID I MENTION I WAS IN THE LIGHTEN UP 4 LIFE COMPETITION? THIS IS WHY I HAVE TO WAIT TO BUY THE DRESS. DON’T HAVE A CLUE WHAT SIZE I MIGHT BE IN APRIL. SMALLER THAN THE CURRENT ONE I HOPE. AND I AM NOT QUITE AT THE GOAL WEIGHT I HAD PLANNED TO BE BY NOW.

MY FIANCE IS SO EXCITED! 2008 IS GOING TO BE A GREAT YEAR. DID I MENTION HE ISN’T INVOLVED IN ANY OF THE PLANNING?